So You're a Working Mom...
Six weeks after having my son, I started my new job as the Marketing Manager for the College of Agriculture at Utah State University.
Even more crazy, I interviewed for the job while I was more than 9 months pregnant and in the beginning stages of labor. I had my son the day after I interviewed, and I received the job offer the day I brought my son home.
I'm not really as crazy as that account of true events makes me seem. At least I don't think I am. I always knew I would be a working mother. I always wanted to utilize my degree in the professional world, however I never imagined being a working mother would be as difficult as it is. Before you have a child, it's impossible to imagine the love you will have for your child, and how with that love, you never want to leave his side. I'm told this will change when he becomes a teenager.
Since starting my new job, there have been plenty of breakdowns both at work and at home. It's difficult not to feel like you are abandoning your child and that you aren't mothering your child the way he deserves. Making it even more difficult is the external social pressure for mothers to either be stay-at-home moms or working women. You can't be both without feeling judgment from strangers.
I really wish I had some great advice to give to help other women in the same predicament as I, but I'm still figuring it all out myself. The only help I can offer is that you are not alone, and you are not the only one who feels the endless guilt of being away from your child for 40 hours a week.
I hoped to end this post on a happy note, but I can't really think of anything. So let's just admire my beautiful son and his fantastic scowl.
Is that not the cutest baby you've ever seen?